These days, no , it started last year! Since Last year, I've been feeling realy bad and I have low confidence on myself. Yeah. I was lonely. My twin started to make more friends than me. People favors her more. Yeah, i know shes beautiful. In fact, much more beautifuul than me. I was lonely while she had two boyfriends who actually treated her nicely. People see me ass one boring girl.
Its not my fault. I was realy rather feeling not so good. I was rejected by my crush. I've liked him since I was form 2. Well nobody knows that. Why? Cuz I dont realy expect I actually able to communicate with him. its kinda frustrating. So I was realy not in the mood to like anybody and just focus on my studies. Which I dont. Cuz everything around me seems so wrong. I hated it.
And someone who I knew FIRST stated to my twin that I was just a faded memories. And he said that shes more beautiful. How she've exceeded me in EVERY way. Nice job on bringing my confindence lower than average. He said how shes better than me.
Yeah I know She's more beautiful than me. I know she's much MORE intelligent than me. I know that. Why cant I just excape this fate. Well Thats what I call the shit Im in. I will ALWAYS be compared to her. ALWAYS! i mean like for eternity! Thats my fate. Shes the smarter one. She's the skinnier one. She's the prettier one. She doesnt have to do ANYTHING to gain something. Cuz shes the more favoured one. She doesnt have to do much effort cuz everybody will end up liking her more.
I hate it.
